tales from an ordinary world

2000-01-14

"I miss your broken china voice..."
Tom Waits

Suddenly I'm living in oddly depressing times, like someone pulled the rug out from under me. Things will get better...eventually...but for the time being I feel...somewhat limited in my actions. Not that it's really anyone else's fault - I should be better prepared for such things - I should be better at organizing that kind of stuff in my life by now - I'm nearly 27 after all...And at the same time there're a few confusing opportunities : some of which I'm unable to pursue, and others that I could take up, but at a price...I feel like someone, somewhere is trying to teach me some sort of lesson. Maybe I was too complacent for a while, there ? Did I think the wrong thoughts about someone ? Or did I say something wrong somewhere ?

I just want to sleep until it's all over. But as they say, there's no rest for the wicked...