tales from an ordinary world

2002-06-30

I think I've come to realise my mistake - the thought, the very presumption, that I might have (or should have) been able to have an effect on certain outcomes, that I might've been able to find the right words to fit certain difficult situations, such that somehow it all would've turned out better.

I've been an observer - a camera, even - but should remain such. The act of observing them does not confer a sense of ownership, and I shouldn't let myself think so. Sometimes I forget that my eyes and ears are far more valuable and far more necessary to others than my mouth and hands. I'm (probably) not required to say anything, much less to do anything. Listen. Watch. These events will unfold, will have their own way.